How do you know when it's ego and when it's Soul?

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Kirsty writes:

"Whenever I'm struggling I always feel it in my heart chakra area. For as long as I can remember it's been that way. I can remember feeling this heaviness in my chest, which later I realized its anxiety but then the more I do this work I feel its not. On a logical, tick-a-box, yes but this doesn't feel just like anxiety this is something that comes up again and again. This heaviness in my chest. This fear. Like my heart can't let go of something but I don't know what. Or perhaps I do deep down but I feel confused by it because it's not one thing. In fact, the more I dig in, the more of it that there is. So many things I can't pin point one, and it feels relentless. It starts to feel pointless, overwhelming and never ending that I'll always be blocked some how. Things never seem to just flow.

With everything that's happening globally I've been called by my higher self to stop fucking around doubting myself but even when that came through I questioned if it was just my ego. Then I listened to your podcast and I was like, yep, omg that was my soul, no accident I stumbled onto your path, my higher self communicating with me saying stop doing this.

So I guess my clarifying question is how do you know when it's ego and when it's soul? I'll give you an example. I keep feeling the call to run a masterclass on inner child work, it keeps coming up again and again but logically I'm thinking I've done some stuff on inner child, but I keep hearing this, do the masterclass, trust us.

But here's the thing — I don't trust. I don't trust I know enough and yet I know it's not me, something is trying to come through me and I'm not allowing it. My heart chakra again feels heavy and I feel the fear of getting it wrong in these uncertain times.

How do you feel the fear and move? I'm scared of moving with ego and not soul, that I don't know the difference.

I have physical pain in my root chakra area reminding me of past trauma so my ego says how can you do inner child work when you hold this? My soul says that's why you can.

How do I trust? I keep asking to be financially supported in my work, financially its been hard but when ideas come through I struggle to trust them. To execute. For example I've been writing a book for a year now and I can't seem to finish it. My heart gets so heavy and the fear takes over.

Don't get me wrong I've executed many things, but when it comes to something 'big' like a masterclass I don't feel qualified to run, or a book I don't feel I know enough to finish, I keep stopping. How do you lean back and trust and allow it to just be without feeling like you’re self sabotaging and just not executing? How do you find flow between the doing and the letting it be? I'm trying to let it be with the book and masterclass but I feel like I'm just actually not trusting I know enough and I feel blocked. Not knowing how to birth the things that I feel want to be birthed and then I get in my head and think maybe they don't want to be birthed, maybe it's just my ego pushing and striving again but then I'm like, nope you know you want to birth these things but you’re terrified of doing so. My heart is heavy.

How do you heal, relieve, or move with a heavy heart with love? I'm scared of moving with ego so I end up not moving on the things I really want and then I question if I do want them or if I'm just trying to get somewhere out of financial fear and trying to push.

So I guess my question is, why does my heart chakra always feel such deep fear? What can I do to support my heart and also healing in my root chakra?

Thank you so much,
Kirsty xxx"

A:

YES. This makes so much sense.

For me, Heart Chakra is the CONNECTOR. It's what allows us to Connect our upper and lower Chakras, and allows us to Connect with others, with the outside world... So it makes sense to me, here, reading what you've shared, that you feel uncertainty, doubt, fear around Connecting with your audience and offering your Medicine — for various reasons, likely, but the one you're sharing here is not feeling ready.

It's a beautiful instinct, really — you want to be in Integrity. You want to be serving your Soul, not your Ego. These are gorgeous instincts. And there are ways to offer these things in total Integrity, 1000%, whether you wait 5 more years or you go NOW.

So here's what I want to offer you...

You'll never be "ready."
You'll never be "done" preparing
for offering your great work.
You'll never have it all figured out.

Those aren't things. If you wait for them, you will likely be waiting your whole life — or at least many, many years — and you will wish you had acted sooner, taken a chance, risked some discomfort, risked being seen.

And you'll never feel COMPLETELY CONFIDENT about offering your Soul's gift to the world. Why? Because She will always, always be calling you into what is Beyond where you are currently comfortable.

She is Infinite, remember.

So if you're not stepping into the places where you're a little uncomfortable, you're likely not following your Soul. Your Ego, on the other hand, is suuuuuuuper happy to have you stay where you are, to convince you to wait until it feels like it can be inflated enough that it has no worries about what may be waiting out there in the Unknown.

Can you imagine if that's how you lived your life every day? Yes, right now we're holing up in our homes to stay safe in this pandemic as a safety measure — but if you never left your home because of what MIGHT happen? Until you were SURE that nothing at all would happen that would feel uncomfortable? You'd wait forever, right?

If all you can do right now is to start small
— then start small.

What can you do — around this Masterclass and this book — that would take the pressure off of them to be PERFECT, to be perfectly safe, to have to be totally, a thousand percent ready? What do you need to say, do or share so that you feel you're in Integrity in your offerings?

All your Root needs for your Heart to open up — is for you to tell it,

"No matter what, I got this.
I can handle it.
I can take the discomfort.
We can do this with deep Integrity
every step of the way.
Let's see what happens..."

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If you feel called, love — the Infinite Possibility Shamanic Journey + Masterclass I'm offering in a couple of weeks could be a beautiful (and easy) way to create more Expansion in your Root AND your Heart by Opening to (and feeling SAFE in) the energy of Possibility.

I also have a few other things
that could be deeply supportive for you.

I'll drop some links below
for you to check out if you'd like...

💛

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xoxo

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