why I've been quiet… 🤍

I have this metaphor I have always used for myself:

Whenever I've found myself moving through something, when something of my life is dissolving or unwinding, or when something of my life is evolving or Expanding and I don't know where to put my foot yet,

I tend to get quiet.

(I'm sure you've noticed — I'm just realizing this morning that I haven't emailed you since August. 😳)

I'm also just a quieter person in general.

(I'm not one of those entrepreneurs who I lovingly call “jazz hands entrepreneurs” — I'm not always ‘on,’ I'm not always high Energy, I'm not loud or boisterous; even when I AM “high Energy,” my version of that is still pretty… peaceful or quieter in nature…

And don't get me wrong: I love those ‘jazz hands entrepreneurs’ — we need all kinds of us doing the thing — but I had to go through some deep digging into myself to untangle myself from the ideas that I would ever (or should ever) be one of them.) But sometimes, I get quietttttttttt. I get a lot more Internal. I go deeply within.

And the metaphor that came to me yeeeeaars ago, that still feels so very true is:

I pull in, like the Ocean when she retreats,
collecting myself into my Center,
deepening, amassing my Power,
before moving my tides forward
again toward the shore.

And when the tides shift forward again it is with the fullness of my Power.

And that's where I've been. Honestly, probably for this entire year. And I'm okay with that.

I'm not really about “consistency” in my business, nor in how I teach Feminine business Energetics — because, for me, we want to be coming more and more into both Alignment and Energetics, and coming more and more OUT of the Machine (i.e. any form of consistency, production, transactionality, that removes us from ourselves, from our Soul, from the Divine, from the Feminine, from our Sacred Destiny…)

That said, I do feel called to share with you a bit about why I've been a little extra quiet as of late.

There's been a Great
Undoing going on.

There's been a profound untangling from the coaching industry, as my Cosmic Team has been telling me that I need to dis-identify with that industry as a whole…something that has honestly been really uncomfortable, because “it's how I created my multi-six-fig business,” because “it's been working," because “it's the only thing I've known” since I became an entrepreneur.

But it's the shift They're calling me to make, so (even if it's with hefty Human Tantrums along the way) I let myself be guided. I am still a coach, insofar as there is coaching, among other forms of Guiding and Mentoring, in my containers — but They want me to pull away from Identifying myself with the industry overall, and with its way of doing and being.

Not because it's wrong or bad but simply because I am something else. Something different. And They want me to be owning that more, and being willing to Stand Apart. (I just found myself taking the biggest sigh… there's still a part of me that wishes I could just ‘Belong.’ But it's not what I'm here to do.)

There's also been very intentional untangling from coaches and mentors I've hired (some of whom I still love and adore, some of whom I had to clear out some Energetic shit from and whom I won't be working with again… Greater Discernment has been this lesson…) and the places where I was letting ‘how they do’ and ‘how they scale’ distract and confuse me from MY Soul Work, from MY Mission, from how this Work wants to be delivered and how it wants to be scaled.

Plus, it's how I Guide YOU to build your Feminine Energy and Soul-guided businesses into Sacred Success — so I get to live into this even more, at THIS level, and remove myself from the influences and examples of others more and more and more.

Because I noticed that a funny thing happened — as my business reached new milestones, I suddenly started (unconsciously) thinking: well, now I need someone else's Strategy, now I need the Template to keep growing.

Somehow, when it got bigger — I got more scared to Trust Her.

So I've been Returning.
Deeper, more Devotedly,
and with more Power.

This has been one of those years (they've happened before — when Golden Goddess was coming through the first time, actually) where I've been holding space for my clients, and guiding them into their Expansion, sometimes through their own Void and Undoing — while I let myself be held and guided by my Soul and my Cosmic Team through my own.

Uncomfortable AF.

There's also been a reckoning and a Releasing with the ways I was letting my beautiful friendships with beautiful, successful peers and sisters poke me in my Belonging Wounds and have me living into old childhood Patterns of ‘keeping up’ or ‘blending in’ or other ways I found myself unconsciously Contorting.

We get to meet more Parts of ourselves as we evolve, Expand and step into greater Power, right?

This Part has been a long time coming. I love her… but she's the one who got me a hefty drinking habit in order to Belong with an ex-boyfriend and his crew… and she's the one who had sex for the first time because everyone else was doing it… and she's the one who let her ex-husband railroad her into all kinds of things that never, ever felt right.

This Part runs deep.

And it's been a Path FULL of Medicine for me as I meet her, see her, and guide us both into a new relationship with Life, with ourselves, with the world and people around us.

Whewwwww. It's been… a lot.

And I've dived deeper into my tools and teachings, and let myself be cracked open farther, deeper, and more uncomfortably, more this year than possibly any. other. year. since my Spiritual Awakening.

But the Tide's coming in now. The Ocean in me has built up her Power, and she's Ready. You may or may not notice it overtly — but there's a Frequency shift that's happened here.

And I hope you can feel it.

I love you.

xoxo

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Heather Allison is a Divine Feminine Shaman + Energy Repatterning Coach for women.
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