"Human Tantrums"

Had myself a good, old fashioned, what I refer to as a "human tantrum" yesterday...
 

Since the turn of the New Year, it. has. been. ON.

Massive, incredible, blow my-socks-off downloads;
near-constant activations and next-levelling with my Team;

a discomfort in my spine and crown and sinus for days as I navigated a density / energetic change;
the removal of a block I apparently self-imposed sometime before I 'came here';
 

even my VOICE changed --- it was one of the more bizarre and entertaining moments of this journey so far:

literally, after having bouts of a dry cough while in meditation since at least the Joshua Tree Retreat --- which I knew was some Throat Chakra clearing or processing ---

suddenly, the other night, it 'broke through' and my voice OPENED, and dropped what felt like an entire fucking OCTAVE. 😳

I could feel it BOOMING through me, and especially felt the energy on the Left side.
So, so interesting.
I couldn't stop giggling.

And then suddenly, Thursday, the fog.

Wait.

So, we just CLEARED a block --- and now there's fog?

It was still there yesterday, and I was ANNOYED AS FUCK.

It wasn't just that I didn't feel my intuition flowing clearly --- I didn't even feel my BRAIN flowing clearly.

I sat down on my mat last night, having heard my Cosmic Teacher trying to get my attention for 2 days, and kind of "yeah, I know, I will... soon..."-ing him...

...and I was like, WTF YOU GUYS.
{human tantrum}

They guided me to journal a day in my journal that I'd missed --- it was from 12/20.

I had left space for the notes (which I text myself in the middle of the night and after meditation, to write down later), but I hadn't ever gone back to fill that day in.

They told me to do it now. *sigh*
{human tantrum}

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A little more back-story of my day yesterday:

🔸 Smack in the middle of my frustration about not feeling like I was receiving anything the way I wanted to, I had a memory drop in from a while ago...

...that of having a clear vision of a Guide showing herself to me, and the simultaneous dropping-in of understanding she brought with her.

That memory came with a {human tantrum-y},
“Yeah, why isn’t that happening now? Why can’t I have that kind of clarity right now?”

🔸 I was also inspired to feel into the possible idea of doing a "Choose You 'Challenge'" after the Live video I did in here yesterday...

I wrote that header on my journal, and then nothing came.
So I put it down, and proceeded to have my little {human tantrum}

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Journaling that entry from 12/20 included a dream in which a woman told me a date:
7/31/17

So, I dug out that old journal from last summer and looked:

There was no entry on that date, but the one right before it?
Was that day I had that 👆🏽 vision of the Feminine Guide who appeared to me, that had just "randomly" dropped into my mind earlier yesterday...

Blown away.
 

And as I went back to finish journaling the 12/20 notes --- this is what I found in the very next text to myself after that dream, the very next thing that was to be filled into the journal:
 

"Choose You Challenge"
And all the notes that had come through in the middle of the night around it.

And I fucking SOBBED.

Ugly cried like I haven't in a while; snot and everything.

So humbled.
So humbled.
So in awe.

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We're not alone.
None of this is on accident.

All of this --- ALL OF THIS --- is on purpose,
on-time, and completely, Divinely orchestrated FOR US.
 

We are so held... SO held... And so, so, so Loved.
 

xoxo

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Heather Allison is a Feminine Energy and Quantum Leap Coach. She often says she was plucked out of a 'normal life' by what she calls her Cosmic Team to help women Awaken the forgotten, ancient Archetypes within so they can find the Love, Soul, Pleasure and Purpose they're meant for.

A coach, teacher, photographer, writer and the founder of Goddess Army, Goddesspreneur, Cosmic Shaman and the latest, the Golden Goddess journey, she works with entrepreneurs, healers, light workers and all soulful women who know they're meant for MORE — more Love, more Magic, more Beauty, more Flow… In journeying through her latest experience, Golden Goddess, her clients leave the shackles of the Wounded Masculine paradigm of Fear and Struggle behind, gain access to the ancient, forgotten Archetype of Goddess buried within them --- and Quantum Leap into their most Mythic Love and Destiny. Based in Seattle, she works with goddesses worldwide.